I'm sitting here, wrapped up in the comfiest clothes I own, including the new soft, cotton pink robe that my Aunt Sandy gave me for Christmas. I am waiting around for 30 minutes while these tiny strips across my teeth work their magic. Common I want a twinkling smile. That's the least I can ask for. If I can't look like a model at least I can have a damn bright smile, right? So at this moment I am feeling sort of... well downcast. I don't know why but I'm just kinda sad. I feel like the end of a sigh. That silence and stillness that isn't exactly peaceful, it's just there. Like the air is hanging suspended and I haven't quite taken a deep, life-giving, enlivening breath of it.
Today I went to work at Wells Fargo Advisors for the first time since summer. Ugh I"m not gonna lie, it was a drag but I'm thankful that I have a job that I can come home to so that I can make some money and catch up after the holidays. I was surprised at how much I remember about how to do things at work and how much I remember about all my mom's clients and their accounts, etc. The day actually went by sort of quickly too. It definitely could've been worse and I'm sure tomorrow will be the same.
New Years. I'm excited about the new year. I feel like I will be experiencing a transformation in it. Or... well I hope that I do. I'm looking to make some big changes in my life and I'm going to work my way back to the straight and narrow path that God had paved for my life. I'm tired of wandering in the dark forest that is full of twisted, mangled vines and crippled trees. I don't want to swat things out of my way constantly and have to slash through thick, dead branches to carve my own ridiculous path. It doesn't make any sense to do so anymore. "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13
As for New Years plans... I have none at this moment. It's so weird because I feel like it's not just me who doesn't really have plans... it's like, everyone! I guess no one really cares about 2010. What a shame. I just hope I can find a fun way to celebrate with friends.
I saw Avatar in IMAX 3D for the second time tonight but this time I saw it with my family. We ran into our close family friends there and got to sit with them. It was a lot of fun and it was just as spectacular the second time around. I learned that it took 6 years to make, which is completely understandable if you think about how much detail was put into that film. It is truly incredible if you realize that almost everything you are watching isn't real and has been created using a computer. It also took 400 billion dollars to make. Outrageous... but if you think about how many people worked on the film and how long it took them to finish, it begins to look less like the exorbitant amount that it is.
Well I'm off to go read more of Dead Until Dark. Gotta love True Blood, baby <3
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