...I was really bad at keeping this updated

I want to start blogging again on a more regular basis. I know I always say that and I'm not sure why I make it seem like such a daunting task. I enjoy it. Not because I have an audience that looks forward to reading my posts, but because it gives me a record to look back on. It helps me understand and observe the different stages that I have gone through in my life. It gives me confidence by allowing me to see the progress that I've made and the obstacles I've overcome, all of which could not have happened without the guidance of the Holy Spirit. I used to use this blog as a my outlet where I poured out my raw and honest thoughts. It's what works for me. I need to acknowledge that about myself and stay true it.

Currently I am feeling many things. I feel nervous and anxious about the months to come. I downloaded my Becker (CPA prep course) software today and attempted to formulate a clear self-study plan and became slightly overwhelmed. There are so many factors to consider. I want to get these 4 parts of the exam out of the way as soon as possible AND pass on my first try, but I worry that my anxious attitude towards finishing will create a heavy and unnecessary time crunch that will ultimately completely rush me and stress me out. If you have ever seen me really stressed, you know that it is not a pretty sight. Also, my test taking abilities plummet when I start to panic.

I know that what works best for me is to a.) allocate a sufficient amount of study time b.) stay on schedule in order to combat my tendency to procrastinate c.) study with other people so that I can ask them questions, work through problems together, talk things out, and have people to keep me on task (as everything is done on the computer where the Facebook monster lives). What is concerning me most right now is that the person I was hoping to study with got her materials before me and has already done a significant amount of work. She is also planning on taking the tests in a different order than I wanted to. I decided to not do the in-class review course because I was going to have people to self-study with, but now I'm worried that I made the wrong decision. I know that worrying does nothing for productivity so today I'm going to try going through one of the first lectures. This is going to be quite the journey in front of me, but hopefully at the end of summer I will have the letters C-P-A at the end of my name and a nice bonus check to show for it.

Time to clean my room and get some things done!