Seven. Seven whole years.
I've been sitting here thinking, how could seven years have gone by? I was 14. I am 21. Those seven years have been so rich and full of momentous events. He didn't experience any of them with me. I was just entering high school. I'm about to graduate college. He didn't stick around to get to know me. And I didn't get the chance to get to know him. It's just a sad thought.
There's nothing I can do but light a candle and remember a day seven years ago. A sad day. I can only sit and be thankful for the support of my friends, family and God which have gotten me to where I am today.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
...I just mused about a thought
"During this trip, I really want to learn how to be with myself. Really be with myself, on the inside. To be okay thinking about myself. How many of us avoid doing just that? Thinking about the things that make us who we are, or how we can improve upon ourselves. I do. I'm scared to think about myself sometimes, its not always pretty. But I want to be able to claim myself, with all my flaws and mistakes."
These are the words of one of my wise friends. This is so true. I need a trip where I can do this. Because it is so much easier to live each day, keeping yourself amply busy and avoiding ever sitting in the silence listening to yourself and your thoughts and pondering where you are at in your life, emotionally and literally. It's so much easier to get up each day and go from task to task, then keep myself distracted between breaks with a computer and then finally get in bed and fall asleep and do the same thing the next day.
These are the words of one of my wise friends. This is so true. I need a trip where I can do this. Because it is so much easier to live each day, keeping yourself amply busy and avoiding ever sitting in the silence listening to yourself and your thoughts and pondering where you are at in your life, emotionally and literally. It's so much easier to get up each day and go from task to task, then keep myself distracted between breaks with a computer and then finally get in bed and fall asleep and do the same thing the next day.
...I finally updated about my 21st birthday Vegas trip
Blogger! I missed you terribly. Oh, how I have neglected you so! I have so much to tell you! So much has happened since my 21st birthday and I never wrote to recap Vegas.
Basically, I was treated like an actual princess (and looked like one too after Marco took me to a costume shop and bought me a fancy tiara which I sported the whole trip, even in themost.... unfortunate of situations that I will not blog about hahaha)
Wednesday August 4th: I walked around the Forum shops and drank a sizable amount including a 1/2 yard margarita with 5 Patron shots in it WOOOOO and drank that out in the open because Vegas rocks my world, then that night I ate at Julian Serrano for Marco's mom's birthday. Later I got ready to go out on the town, it was supposed to be a "bar hopping" night but we spent the whole time at Blue Martini with a big group of people.
After that was SALSAAA dancing at Rhumbar and then another special visit for the night (LOL). Let's just say I woke up with 17 tally marks on my arm.Thursday, August 5th: I started the day recovering from my hangover in the cabana that my mom got for usby the Palms Pool (pictured below)
I also visited the "European style" pool at Caesar's Palace. Then later we met up with my fam at The Grand Lux Café at the Venetian and had a lovely birthday dinner.
Friday, August 6th: Ditch Friday baby! The Palms Pool is the place to be on Fridays because it's a giant rager around a pool. There is a DJ spinning and everyone is dancing and having a great time, in and out of the water. Marco was able to get us access to the VIP deck where there was an open bar AND got us lounge chairs when everyone and their mom was trying to get one too. The lifeguard pulled out 2 extra chairs for us while everyone around us watched in awe. It was ridiculous. After a good time spent at the pool party, we headed over to the Mirage and saw dolphins and tigers and such. Then we ended the day with dinner at the Wynne buffet where Marco knew the manager (who brought us complimentary champagne). All in all, best weekend everrrrr.
Basically, I was treated like an actual princess (and looked like one too after Marco took me to a costume shop and bought me a fancy tiara which I sported the whole trip, even in themost.... unfortunate of situations that I will not blog about hahaha)
Wednesday August 4th: I walked around the Forum shops and drank a sizable amount including a 1/2 yard margarita with 5 Patron shots in it WOOOOO and drank that out in the open because Vegas rocks my world, then that night I ate at Julian Serrano for Marco's mom's birthday. Later I got ready to go out on the town, it was supposed to be a "bar hopping" night but we spent the whole time at Blue Martini with a big group of people.
After that was SALSAAA dancing at Rhumbar and then another special visit for the night (LOL). Let's just say I woke up with 17 tally marks on my arm.Thursday, August 5th: I started the day recovering from my hangover in the cabana that my mom got for usby the Palms Pool (pictured below)
Then I got to go to the Ludacris concert for freeeee and Marco got us into the Miller Light private party, which was awesome. After the concert I went back to my room and got ready to go out for a night of clubbing. I put on my crazy Lady Gaga-esque birthday dress and headed over to the Aria to Haze night club. Jersey, one of Marco's friends/fraternity brothers, works at Haze and got me and my friends put on a special guest list and we didn't have to wait in line at all (also it was a locals only night but we were able to get in). The bouncer pulled back the velvet rope and said "Come on in Princess."
After Haze closed at 4am we participated in some other shenanigans and the night was a complete success.
Friday, August 6th: Ditch Friday baby! The Palms Pool is the place to be on Fridays because it's a giant rager around a pool. There is a DJ spinning and everyone is dancing and having a great time, in and out of the water. Marco was able to get us access to the VIP deck where there was an open bar AND got us lounge chairs when everyone and their mom was trying to get one too. The lifeguard pulled out 2 extra chairs for us while everyone around us watched in awe. It was ridiculous. After a good time spent at the pool party, we headed over to the Mirage and saw dolphins and tigers and such. Then we ended the day with dinner at the Wynne buffet where Marco knew the manager (who brought us complimentary champagne). All in all, best weekend everrrrr.
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